Hello,
a bit about me:
My minor in writing gateway course project is one of the most personal things I have ever done. Through my semester long journey, writing has offered me a space to process, grieve, and actively live my truth. That being said, this is my college breakup story from the initial heartbreak, through the grief process, and finally finding myself again.
This project started with a letter to my ex, which became as a break-up podcast to expose the shitty college boys, which prompted a deep dive into relationships, desires, and intentions of college students. After analyzing the relationships of myself and others I started to feel stuck, so I turned to my therapeutic escape: music. However, music triggered all the feelings I thought I left in 2019 with my breakup so I decided to turn my feelings into lyrics as an attempt to put them to bed as I continued producing the podcast. On the podcast I was so “riled up”, so much of my hurt was coming through, and I would walk away from episodes feeling guilty for “exposing” the men who had wronged me. I realized that the persona I was projecting on What Now? was rooted in a version of myself my ex created: “Big Evil”. I didn’t want to be “big evil” anymore. I just wanted to be Lex; my loving, passionate, devoted self. Throughout the semester I learned how to get over a breakup and how not to by rebelling against everyone’s advice thinking I knew better. Looking forward, I have found myself again. As my friend Reagan described it “she’s back!” and I am definitely back and better than ever. I’m Literally, Lex. and I’m here to share my story and hear yours because we're all going through it, let's go through it together.